All I want is a real job.. I feel so crummy when I want to do things and can't.  Especially when I want to get something for somebody else or treat somebody.  When I worked in the past, I always paid for people and went out and had a great time because I knew how to spend my money.. so I feel really awful being so broke.  But I'll get on my feet soon and then I'll be financially freeeeeeeee!  Well, for the most part.
So I bought a new purse today.  I really like it.. soft gray leathery, and lots of pockets. They were selling it everywhere but I found it in a shop where it was discounted 15e so I got it cheaper than anywhere else that I saw.  Smart shopper ftw.

I feel solemn today.

Alright.. It's about 8 am and I'm UP!  For the day.  No napping. 
There were these horrible sounds coming from across somewhere around the water outside our apartment.. I thought it was a dying cat.. I know that's a cliche, but I honestly thought it was a dying cat.. and then I opened the window to check if I needed to save an animal, and then I thought it was an old man crying with all of his might.  What in the world could have been making such a sound?  Lars walked to work and said it was 2 seagulls >>  I feel like if seagulls could make such a ruckus I would have known it years ago.  Even if it were a sealion, that would have been way more believable.

I kind of want to delete my Facebook account.  FB has brought me more grief than anything.. the only thing I want instead of it is a place to post all of my photos.  I can't figure out Flickr and I don't think Photobucket can possibly hold that many pictures.  Also unfortunately, nobody uses anything besides Facebook so it's kind of pointless to look for a new social networking site.

I want to go shopping today.  I want some new shoes, a new purse and maybe perfume.  I know, it's all my guilty pleasures.. but I've been using the same old stuff for way too long.. I need an update.  I really like this purse from Topshop:
http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=40&viewAllFlag=false&catalogId=19551&storeId=12556&categoryId=169015&parent_category_rn=130031&productId=1645128&langId=-1  I wish I could get just an image to show up but a link will suffice.

Chicken stuffed with wild rice for dinner, can probably finish Mass Effect 2 sometime in the evening, and I think I'm good to go =)

That Danish embassy better write me back really soon about my Swedish visa.. I wrote them 5 business days ago and still, nothing.

Breakfast time!!!  <3 Tea

I'm looking forward to seeing Eclipse when I get home.  The movies are terrible but at the same time the characters are more true to life than most others in movies about teenage/high school drama.  I really don't get it.. the final book (Breaking Dawn) was so good.. hense my theory that Stephanie Meyer didn't even write it..  I just wish the whole series would have been like it.  I won't talk about it because that would be spoilers >>

I can't wait to go to Sweden.  It's so peaceful in Nykoping and Lars' family is so much fun.  I really want to live and work there someday.. I just have to make sure I have a way to get a job.  Hopefully I'll be able to meet people within the journalism field.. it's all about networking!

Alright, stair running and lunges.  Then store.. no clue what I'm going to feed Lars tonight.  Pot roast is always so wholesome but he hates any meat with fat on it, and most beef is extremely fatty, which is why it's so delicious.  I also need to buy some more socks and white tshirts for him.  Exercising always helps my brain function better.  I'll try that first.  Also I really need some energy.  I feel so drained today.

Burj Khalifa..  2,717 feet tall.  The tallest THING ever created by mankind.  In all of our existence, this is it.  It's so hard to believe this building actually exists.  Every picture of it looks like one of those CGI created images.  It's monstrous.  But it's also the first of those "futuristic cities" we see in a lot of really beautiful artwork.. like this:

And yes, that's Illium from Mass Effect 2.  Nobody creates a realistic, futuristic world better than the people who created that game.  <3

The more childish, disrespectful, unappreciative people who remove themselves from my beautiful life, the better.

Lars came back from Sweden.. with a mountain of candy.  Not just any candy.. Swedish candy.  I thought I was on the right track running up and down the stairs and doing lunges.. but he brought back tons of Maoam.. the good kind, like we had in Amsterdam.  I'm done for lol.  Actually, no.. I think I can conquer this.  

I like wearing his robe.

I slept alright last night.. although I had dreams about a huge star in Mass Effect.. I'm so scared of huge things.. it's probably some instinctual fear but certain things just scare the crap out of me.  So much that I really almost faint.. Thinking about really deep water in the ocean has the same effect.. my mind just can't comprehend the enormity of it.  Blah..
I found an almost perfect way to exercise!  I never thought about it, but there's like 6 floors in this apartment building and almost no one uses the stairs.  I've never seen anybody walking up and down them actually haha.  So I've been running up and down them and walking 2 at a time and stuff.. it's a great workout.
Also I found a delicious sandwich to make.. tuna, mayo and sweet corn on wheat toast.  I can't explain it, but all the flavors together are amazing.  Omnom =)

Lars is coming back todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

I love my dad so much.  Just thinking about him makes me want to cry.. I can't wait to go home and give him a huge hug.

I'm gonna be so glad when Lars is back tomorrow.  I feel like myself when I'm alone, but when I'm with him, I feel full.